I just finished college today.
May 15, 2026. I'm 20.
The strange part is that I don't really know how it feels.
People keep asking me the same questions. How do you feel? Are you excited for the future? Are you scared for the future?
I keep realizing that I don't have a clean answer. I am sad, but not only sad. I am excited, but not only excited. It feels like one version of my life quietly ended while another one was already standing at the door, waiting for me to notice it.
The funny thing is college ended for me twice.
The first time was during senior year fall, when I took the full time exemption and only had one class, which I almost never went to. Technically I was still in college, but emotionally something had already shifted. I was not living the same college rhythm anymore. I had one foot out.
The second time is today. The actual ending.
And this one feels different because now there is no technicality left. No next semester. No default reason to be on campus. No easy assumption that everyone will still be nearby.
I think that is the part I am most sad to lose.
Not assignments. Not classes. Not the formal parts.
I am sad to lose friends being close. Badminton twice a week. Drinking with close friends. The random college lifestyle where plans could appear out of nowhere and responsibilities still felt lighter than they probably should have.
There is a freedom in that stage of life that you don't fully notice until it starts leaving.
But I'd also be lying if I said I'm not incredibly excited to grow and learn.
By the way, I got a job working with Blake Mycoskie. Maybe one of the best jobs I could have asked God for.
He recently asked me what I am most grateful for and what I am most excited about, and my answers were crystal clear.
I am grateful for my family. I am grateful for the very few but close friends I have. And I am incredibly excited for the future, to learn and grow.
Working with Blake feels like a sign that life can become much bigger than I imagined. Way bigger.
I am working with one of the people who built one of the greatest shoe businesses in the country. It almost feels like God, or the universe, giving me a tiny sign that I am going to make it fucking big. And this is just the start.
College was fun. College was interesting. But more than anything, college changed me.
I moved from India at 17. Even then, I was wildly ambitious, but the ambition was misdirected and scattered. Honestly, it is still scattered now, but at least it has some direction.
At 20, I can't believe how much I have grown in how I communicate, how I think, how I talk, and how I work.
One thing I realized about myself is how hard I can work at my peak. I saw it in late 2025 when I was building Finny with full focus, going to the gym every day like clockwork, and eating healthy.
Once you see and experience and live the best version of yourself, you realize you can do so much more. And so much better.
That changes your self image. You stop wondering if that version of you exists because you have already met him.
One of the biggest things college and friends taught me is that you need to seriously surround yourself with people who are as ambitious as you are.
Sure, make friends to party and drink. I have had those too. I still do.
But really try to meet more ambitious people. They extend your thinking. They make your world bigger. They make what once felt unrealistic start feeling normal.
When I ask myself what I am scared of, I don't know.
But I know one thing.
My thinking has grown really big recently.
In my life, my worst case scenario is that I'll make it. And my best case scenario is that I'll make it fucking big.
Anyway.
College is over.
Future me, live fully. Try everything. Everything will figure out.